"i mean i havent driven a lot in the last year, but when i do i usually just go below the speedlimit to piss people off
and it rains on the daily here, trust me i wont be stupid
but dude. i was so upset for awhile. I honestly couldnt think. It wasnt so much i wanted her back than i just wihsed it never happened, and i was just mopey.
But i got paid my money for ROTC. first thought was im going to buy a motorcycle. Then i remembered who i was and realized who ive become.
I was defining myself with Lauren and not me. I wasnt being happy about life, i was just going through it. I become complacent. When i decided to buy a motorcycle i remebered who i fucking am. I am Ian fucking Bosak. It felt like i could breath again. I couldnt stop laughing. I wanted to get into a fist fight and loose, climb the fucking dorm buildings again, i wanted to jump from moving cars. Im not spritual but it felt like i could breath in the comseic energies again and make like my own."
